One of my favourite quotes!

Sunset

I just thought you might like to see one of my interest at work. I love taking photographs and this is one of mine. What do you think?

Frustration Building

Feeling very frustrated today. Maybe because I have not been on my blog for a while allowing myself to express myself. But I think it has also to do with my work and where I am headed in life.

My BF has so many things he wants to do and they are all possible, he must just do them!

I on the other hand feel like I am drowning in uncertainty about where I am meant to be or what I am suppose to be doing with my life.

One thing is for sure it is not at the guesthouse! It is slowly driving me insane and I can feel myself cracking! I had abit of a melt down on Friday night. Over tired and very emotional!!

Where do I belong in this life? I feel as if this is a never to be answered question at this point.

Feel like I have no direction! Need some guidance but don't know who to turn to!

I came to a realisation last night before getting into bed, my frustration is not only with work and all it's issues it is also to do with the fact that I feel my life is stuck. It feels like we have not moved on since we arrived in this town two years ago. I had this idea of where I would have liked to have been by now and we are not there and that in itself is a frustration for me. But I am feeling much brighter this morning. I will no longer wait for something to happen I have decided to take control and do things for myself.

Even if it means moving home without my bf. I feel that if it does come to that it will push him in the right direction in terms of making a decision about his career and where he wants to be.

Life is not always fair like that, I never wanted to leave here without him but if that is what I need to do for myself and us then it will have to happen! Lets hope it doesn't cause I will miss him so badly.

I have been trying to work out what my blog should be about. Whether it should focus on one topic or whether just about my life in general. I think life in general and all aspects of my interest. Which at the moment are very limited due to my current situation with work. But I am determined to change that.

Well enough moaning now, time to move on to the positive!